I had big plans today. Work goals to meet and exercises to do. But then I got the weekly call from school about you being sick.

So, those things can wait.

I had plans to do laundry and start dinner early to avoid another night of quesadillas.

But the house stuff wait.

I had specialists to call and emails to send.

But those people can wait, too.

I spent the drive home from school upset about another interruption to the week, but I realized this: it can all wait.

Because, you, my love, are it. You, your dad and your siblings, you’re it.

You’re the main thing. My main love, my first job, my biggest purpose. And although I have a calendar I like to stick to and dreams of my own, they can wait.

I’ll sit here and massage your still chubby hand, I’ll laugh at Elmo with you for the hundredth time, we’ll do more of you and less of me.

Because this is what you need. And my needs, for now, they can wait.

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*Behind the post*
Dear reader, I did not feel this way this morning. I take Anderson home from school once a week. We don’t know what’s going on. We think it’s a vicious cycle of allergies, which leads to drainage, pink eye, vomiting, etc. Trust me, reader, I know this is small potatoes compared to other things we’ve been through, or maybe what you are going through. It’s amazing how even when going through big, scary things, even with that perspective, the little things can still wear you down. I was just feeling down today and then I realized, what I have been telling myself for weeks, the family is the main thing. I need to remember this when things go off book.

I’ve been avoiding allergy testing because it requires another blood draw, which is really hard for Anderson (kids with Down syndrome are harder sticks) I took him in and it was another missed stick. We are trying to figure out next steps with medical care.